Saturday, July 13, 2013

Just to talk

Sometimes I sit down to blog something and I swear to baby Jesus that nothing comes out.  Wait, I lie, things come out but then I erase it all and try and write what I think people will want to read.  I spend so much time writing, erasing and rewriting then nothing ever gets posted.  That wasted time is so annoying to me especially since I don't have any readers, or any that I know of! So I spend all this time worrying about what people will think of me, or my kids, or my husband when no one reads this damn thing.  That being said I think I will just start writing what feels good and honest because I think this could be a good way for me to look back at my life 10 years from now and hopefully say "damn you had a good life" and not "who the hell were you trying to fool?"

Moving on! I wanted to write a little about the boys and how amazingly different the 2 of them are turning out to be, I say this knowing full well that Jacks is only 7 weeks old and he will continue to change and probably prove me wrong over and over again.  Anyway when I first got pregnant with Jacks I was shocked at how different things felt.  I suddenly had morning sickness and was cursing myself for assuming that both of my pregnancies would be so easy going and fun.  After the initial curse of nausea wore off around 17 weeks the rest of the pregnancy was pretty nice, I didn't gain 300 lbs or get swelling or any of the other fun pregnancy stuff I just expected since I didn't have it with Nathaniel.  So my pregnancies were different, chalk that one up to chasing a 2 year old around while incubating another human.  I should've assumed that since things up to the end of pregnancy weren't the same that labor would be no different but like a silly school girl I again just assumed (what is that saying about assuming things again?) that my labors would be the same.  I got incredibly lucky with Nathaniel and was only in painful labor for less than 5 hours before he was born so why wouldn't my second labor but even easier, I mean don't they say the second time is faster?  Yeah well WRONG.  I was in labor for a full 24 hours with Jackson but luckily the crazy painful part wasn't that long thanks in part to the best epidural ever! So pregnancy and labor aside, I have 2 sons- boys are all the same right? BAH wrong again.  Nathaniel was one of the neediest babies ever although it wasn't entirely his fault.  I totally held him all day and night just looking at him and cooing at his every moment.  Hell you only get one baby once and you probably never get the chance to just fawn over a baby as much as you do with your first so I soaked up every minute of it.  Turns out that while I was right that I probably won't get to fawn over Jackson quite as much as I did Nathaniel it also created a little monster that wanted all of my attention all day and night.  So I created a not sleeping unless he was held, cute as a button monster.  Luckily I don't have all day to sit and gawk at Jackson, but don't get me wrong there is still a fair amount of gawking happening, I mean seriously who doesn't want to just cuddle a new baby?? Jackson just seems like a much more laidback baby, he's perfectly content to not be held all day.  He even likes the very expensive swing that I think we used a total of 10 minutes with Nathaniel.  He sleeps great at night has me spoiled with more sleep than I got in 6 months with Nathaniel. I probably just cursed myself by writing that out loud but the point of all this is that my boys are different.  One dark haired with blue eyes (Jackson) and one blonde with brown eyes (Nathaniel, duh), but for as different as they are they are similar.  Both are porkers who love to eat- hello 13 lb baby who has gained 5 lbs!! in 7 weeks haha, they both wrinkle their foreheads the same way and more importantly they are both my sweet babies. 
Trying to get a picture of my 2 boys on July 4th.

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Ending the blog hiatus

I guess it's about time to end my self induced blog hiatus.  Somewhere along the way while growing a healthy baby boy while watching a crazy almost 2 year old I just ran out of time and energy to try and blog.  That being said I definitely miss having something that is just mine.  Being a stay at home mom is satisfying in ways I never imagined but it doesn't mean that I don't still want or need something all my own to keep my sanity.  Reading and writing has always been "my thing" so I'm hoping to be able to get my thoughts out here and hopefully gain some readers with my incredible wit and sarcasm, ha ha ha!

So when I last left off I was growing boy number 2 so its time to announce that he has arrived.  Jackson Ellis arrived healthy and happy 2 weeks early on May 23, 2013.  He weighed in at 8 lbs 3 oz and 20.5 inches.  He was a full pound lighter than his big brother which shocked all of us, even if he had cooked 2 weeks longer I can't imagine he would have been over 9 lbs.  We had an amazingly different birthing experience than we had with Nathaniel and although I still didn't have the birth I planned for I still ended up with a healthy baby.  Maybe if I can get my stuff together I will write down Jackson's birth story.  I have been trying very hard to do the same stuff I did for Nathaniel for him so he doesn't grow up with that whole "Nathaniel got everything, I got nothing" attitude.  Easier said than done but writing the birth story and taking a few more pictures can't hurt!
first pics of mom and her boy

daddy holding his son for the first time

Other than trying to adjust to a new family of four I have been keeping myself busy with visitors.  We had the hubs mom here to stay with Nathaniel while we were in the hospital and she stayed for a week after we came home from the hospital.  Then we had my sister and her boyfriend visit for a night and then finally my mom came and stayed for a week.  I have been blessed to have the hubs home for a full 6 weeks as well and he returns to work this week.  I say blessed but really there were days that he was more work than he was helpful.  I think I might have said "I wish you were at work" more than a handful of times, haha, poor guy had to deal with a sleep deprived wife and a rambunctious 2 year old.  In all seriousness he used his time off to get a bunch of house related stuff done (refinishing our shitty, splinter inducing deck, replacing our front storm door as well as all of the wood around it, etc) as well as go on adventures with Nathaniel.  They went to DC for a day, went to the local railroad museum, spent a day playing at the mall, and other fun shenanigans while I stayed home breastfeeding the new guy.

Nathaniel meeting his baby brother

trying to get a pic of our new family was harder than I thought it would be

Otherwise we have been just trying to get as much sleep as we can and staying cool since it has been HOT here.  I wish I had more exciting things to share but right now life is pretty dull.  I know that once Tom is back at work and I am the sole entertainer that I will have to find things for Nathaniel to do so our days will be a little more exciting.  Hopefully then I will have more to share. 
Oh on a random note I am posting on a moms blog about life after babies and getting your body back so hopefully that will direct some new readers here!
I promise I won't wait 2 months to write again!